On Fear

Fear is an enemy that many, many of us would like to rid from our lives. It torments us night and day. It causes us not to be our authentic self. We wish that there were someway to extract it from our lives. If you have never experienced FEAR, count your blessings and be everything you can be.

Fear has often plagued me since I was a little child. I was always afraid to speak up in class. I sat in classroom after classroom year in and year out never volunteering a word unless I was called on. Inside fear robbed me of learning through discussion. I spent so much time fearing being asked that I missed out on the discussion at hand.

When you carry forth the mask of fear, it affects other parts of your life as well. Through all the fear, somehow I got married and had two wonderful sons. Fear seemed to tie me to my home. I did walk and talk to the Lord a lot. One day I stood in my townhouse and I cried out, “Lord Jesus I need some one, a friend to walk and talk with me. Oh Lord, I said, I promise I will go anywhere and do anything for you if you will do this for me.” The Lord heard. Immediately a friend whom I hadn’t heard from in years called and was moving to the same town as I was moving to. Joy of joys she was attractive, encouraging, and motivating. We started walking and praying together on a daily basis.

She encouraged me to work in the boys’ school. I did and loved it. Meanwhile I had a mishap in the car. I seriously thought of not driving again, but my friend said, “No, get back on that road. It is the trick of the enemy, just get in and drive.” I did and fear fled as I faced it.

My friend and I were very lucky in that we had one year together before God separated us again. I was sent to Louisiana. I had always dreamed of finishing my degree and becoming a teacher. The fears of past failures plagued me again. I was able with God’s help to go beyond. In order to show you how pathetic this fear was listen to this. One day I became very upset with a grade that I had obtained in music. I was very distraught in my soul. I felt sure a slippage in grades meant I was headed for failure once again as I had not finished college years ago due to inadequate grades. My friend called and said, “What is the matter with you? The Lord is telling me you are upset.” I said, “I made a B on a music test. “What!” she said. A “B” and what do you want me to do, call intercessors to pray for you because you made a B? What? Are you crazy!” This jogged my mind to my senses. “Fear,” I yelled, “get out of my life!”

One day fear decided to test me again. I was face with a test that at first glance I felt I knew none of the answers, although I had studied for hours. I finished what I could and then I bowed my head and said, “Lord Jesus you know I studied, please help clear my mind so that I may remember how to do the test. I reread the test and it was so clear to me what the answers were. I changed most of them and made an A. Thank you Jesus!

Fear re-masked me as we moved to Louisiana. If I wanted to go to the city, I would have to drive across the 23 mile bridge. For 12 years I did not drive that bridge. Fear rose up in me every time I thought upon it. Then one day I prayed, Lord take this fear from me. Low and behold several months went by and one day I crossed the bridge with no fear. After crossing it, I thought, Lord I had no fear! Thank you Jesus, thank you, you heard me, I just thank you. I have no fear. Hallelujah!

As time went by, it appeared that I was not returning to my beloved Virginia, so I needed to visit my folks and my dear precious friend. I again prayed and asked the Lord to help me as the trip was 18 hours away. My boys and I plugged in some Christian music and away we went to Virginia. Yes, with the help of Jesus I had overcome my fear.

Later as I was teaching, I won the Sallie Mae National Teachers Award given to outstanding first year teachers. Observations were frequent. No fear, just Jesus! Time came and I was asked to join a team going to India. I found myself facing another fear – flying. I mentioned this to another woman of God and she said, “Listen to me. Are you a praying woman?” I said, “Why yes I am.” Well then what does it matter? If the plane goes down, you would meet a whole heavenly host of relatives and friends in heaven.” She continued, “I doubt if old Satan would like this, because in heaven you could pray all the time and down here you would be less of a threat to him. “ Oh I never thought of it in that way,” I said. I walked on that plane whispering to myself, “Lord Jesus I am in the palm of your hand, please protect me.” Therefore another fear put to rest.

Dear friend, are you troubled with fear? Does it cripple you? I pray not. If it does, go to the Rock, Jesus. He will set you free as he is setting me free step upon step upon step.

POSTSCRIPT TO THE ABOVE PIECE – Today I am back in Virginia with my dear friend Sara who has orchestrated this wonderful site for all to come and learn of how Jesus works in our lives today. Thanks Sara.

Published by rko777

I am a novice writer and painter who loves to be creative. I love singing but can't sing without a hymnal, except for children's songs. I love to make up my own songs and love the old hymns. I love to garden and got that love from my Mom and Dad who taught be everything I know from planting to harvesting to canning. I'm happy gardening, walking with my pug, JD Sir Winston Churchill, painting, and crafting. I love to spend Saturday's sitting in my rocker going through a bible study. I love working with elementary school aged children and seeing them use their creative gifts. I have taught Sunday school for a number of years and taught in the public schools for 18 years. I might say I'm retired but I spend most of my time subbing and enjoy it immensely. The kids spark my own creativeness.

16 thoughts on “On Fear

  1. Rena,
    It is so wonderful to hear how you and all of us can be healed from our fears, if we will only possess the right kind of fear. Read with me, the following scriptures for the kind of fear we should possess.

    Psalm 128:1 says “How joyful are those who fear the Lord- all who follow his ways!” Also, over in Deut. 13: 4 it says,”Serve only the Lord your God and fear him alone.Obey his commands,listen to his voice,and cling to him.” Now, listen to 2 Tim.1:7, “For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” Now,what wonderful promises we all have here, in God’s Word!

  2. Rena,
    I read your story with interest because of how I have struggled (and unfortunately, still struggle some) with fear. I think much of mine is involuntary–kind of ingrained from childhood–but that is no reason to accept it. I know “perfect love casts out fear”. The fear I have the hardest time conquering is that which wakes me up in a panic at night. It’s hard to take our thoughts captive when we are asleep. But I never give up and I can go for weeks sometimes with very little fear. It is the enemy’s favorite tool to use against me, though. I, too, am going back to school and plan to teach again soon. That has its own set of fearful situations–what if I can’t pass the Praxis, what if I don’t get hired, what if I can’t keep the class under control or teach them well enough to pass their tests? But God assures me that I am right where I am supposed to be and He is in control and I don’t need to worry about any of those things.

  3. Dear Carol,
    As you have read above, I am a teacher too. I have been tested and continue to be tested on the subject of fear. I have prayed the scriptures many times which Needles has written. Without them I don’t know what I would do. It seems to me we like David meet our giant who is called “fear”. With God’s word and conquering one fear after another, we seem to be able to overcome more and more and gain confidence when fear shows its nasty appearance.
    I had many of the same fears that you now have with going into teaching.
    When I was obtaining a degree I was faced with taking a similar test like the Praxis. I finally resolved that if God had called me to teach, that I would just get through it because He had purposed my life to be a teacher. He did as I passed it. I encouraged my own son who didn’t know if he would pass the test for teaching. He is now in his first year of teaching. I also remember not sleeping for many nights because I would rehearse each lesson over and over trying out various ways of handling the lesson which took my whole nights sleep. Thank goodness to Sara who told me, “Teachers are like pens but its the ink that runs through them that make the difference, and God is running through yours so rely on Him, stop rehearsing, and let Him flow through you. I’ve done that for 16 years now.
    One thing I also know is that Satan doesn’t like it when a Christian teacher begins working in a classroom and he would do anything to stop that. God cheers and he annoys. May the Lord bless you and be with you when you enter that classroom and as you teach and work with students. May the Lord use your special talents to touch those He has chosen for you to work with. May your room be Carol’s Room and may it be filled with and overflowing with the love of God. May God meet your every need as you deal with all the paperwork, tests, and communications. May He bless you coming in and and going out. Amen.

  4. Thank you for your transparency, Rena, and also,in Carol’s response. I heard a psychologist recently say that when you face the fear and call it by its name and speak it out and speak out against it, it loses most of its power over us and becomes an insignificant thing. This is similar to Sara’s teaching on “Face it; Admit it; Change it” and then go on.
    I love the Scripture that says that when satan is finally cast down and he is gazed upon, a hopeless wimp, a powerless, toothless lion, that the people will say wonderingly, astoundedly…. “Is THIS what deceived the nations of the earth and brought the downfall of many? This gutless wonder? This cowardly, weak creature? That just exactly describes the spirit of fear.

  5. Psalms 46:1-5 ” God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble. 2 So we will NOT FEAR when earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea. 3 Let the oceans roar and foam. Let the mountains tremble as the waters surge! 4 A river brings joy to the city of our God, the sacred home of the Most High. 5God dwells in that city; it cannot be destroyed. From the very break of day, God will protect it.”
    Psalms 34: 4-7 “4 I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears. 5 Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces. 6 In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened; he saved me from all my troubles. 7 For the angel of the Lord is a guard; he surrounds and defends all who fear him.”
    The Lord promises to free us from are fears and troubles. This is awesome. God never breaks a promise. “IF THE SON HAS SET YOU FREE, YOU ARE FREE INDEED” What an awesome promise.
    FREEDOM FROM FEAR + FREEDOM FROM TROUBLES = PEACE IN THE LORD!!!! I want to be a part of this equation.
    Thank you Jesus for freedom of fear of harm. Way to go, Rena!! Awesome job on conquering your fears!!! Thank you for sharing this blog. Just remember, “NO FEAR”!!!!!!!!!!!!

  6. Rena what inspiring examples to see how God brought you through each fearful trial, giving you the support and encouragement you needed to face the very things you feared by doing them…moving right through each obstacle. When fear possesses us, it tries to freeze, paralyze, and render us immobile, holding us in its clutches. Needles reminded us that the right kind of fear, the fear of the Lord, should possess us. This kind of fear frees us with movement…moving us to serve Him, praise Him, follow Him…right out of the grip of fear. Thanks for sharing your experiences of how God delivered you.

  7. Rena thank you from all that is with in me and all that I am…for sharing this testimonal blog…fear is something I am well aware of and deal with and am being as you mentioned delivered step by step….but its so very encouraging to know from someone who has come so far in this deliverance because it tells me God is no respector of persons and I too can accomplish and do and go and be just as free as you and I am being free….daily more and more…and God is so good He always puts before us encouragement from Himself through others…..thats why its important to share….and be that living book filled with all that God has done..and allowing others to read and be set free….to set others free…in order to set others free…..you see its not just for ourselves…….thankyou once again……dj

  8. Hi Rena and Carol, I have been thinking about fear and confidence since I read your blog and comments.

    I thought about how the enemy of our soul would so want to make teachers and other skilled and gifted leaders feel so inadequate. The ones that so desire to work with and impart skill and help build character into generation after generation of our youth.

    I hear almost daily about children going through fear and feeling inadequate as well. Also, about how parents are feeling about their children, school and related issues, and again fear.

    It takes three, parent, student and teacher to make the whole. Fear works as a broken bridge to defeat the goal. As we all work and overcome fear with our love for the gift God has placed within us the bridge will be repaired.

    Is. 58:12 comes to my mind and heart as a prayer for you Carol, “And your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt; you shall raise up the foundations of [buildings that have laid waste for] many generations; and you shall be called Repairer of the Breach, Restorer of Streets to Dwell In.”

    Carol, I believe God has gifted you to teach, love and care for others. It takes a real bold woman to search out, find, and share with others. Be blessed as I lift your name to Our loving Father asking for the Holy Spirit to lead, guide and direct you daily as you continue to bring forth the gift God has placed within you.

  9. Carol, if you are in the Loudoun/Fairfax Va. school area and would like to make some contact with other teachers for support maybe you could let us know. We do have teachers in both counties on the daily lily.

    Seems like Rena had a friend that was like a tool for her.

  10. Thank you for your kind words, encouragement and ideas on how to deal with fear. I actually feel better knowing that I’m “just a pen” and whatever is supposed to happen, will happen. I have a job interview for a teaching assistant position at Catoctin Elementary tomorrow. P.S. I am Jon’s wife; I think I met some of you at Tup Tim Thai (which is closed now).

  11. Carol, Prayers for your interview.

    I didn’t know Tup Tim Thai has closed. We loved it! Are they going to reopen or is, that it?

  12. Yes, Carol. We will pray that your interview goes very well, and that you have favor with God and with man. Christ Jesus strengthen you.

  13. Thank you to all for your prayers. I will let you know what happens. Yes, I think she has closed the Thai restaurant for good; she had some difficulties from the beginning, and stress-related stomach problems. There are a lot of new Thai restaurants in Ashburn, so there was more competition.

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